Continuing Death

So there are still no details regarding my friend's sons death. Only that he was found dead in his bed in the morning so no details till the autopsy is complete. I'm learning that in real life things don't happen as fast as CSI they would have known in an hour. Anyway, I'm remembering my father's death as well and all the things that had changed about me and had slowly without my realizing started to change back to the old way. So now I'm remembering them and installing them again which is part of the NEW right! So, I'm being patient there is no reason to get upset at road rage or things beyond your control. I'm remembering that you never know what can happen so you have to take chances and not be afraid. And don't hold back because you may never get the chance again to tell the person you love how much you love them. Never assume, people in this world assume so much. Chad always tells me don't put words in my mouth and I have to step back and think hmmmm, I assumed he meant that when he said that but he didn't. I turned it into what I wanted to hear. So no more assuming and no more taking for granted. There I find though are many contradictions with this lifestyle. You have to save money but if you want to take a trip shouldn't you if you have the money? Maybe you buy less groceries for one week? If you want to call off work to play in the grass well you can but not everyday like I would like! I guess there is a balance to measure or something. But the point is be true and love life and yourself and don't get so angry at things you can't change.

I know this person that always says, "it is what it is" but it's not. It is what you make it!